It's Been Awhile

I think it's official....Mom doesn't know me! It used to be that one day she didn't but then the next she did. It's been days....no...weeks. I just keep thinking...maybe today she'll know me. I thought she knew me on her birthday last week, because I gave her some bracelets and the next day she said that she got them from Laraine. She just doesn't know that I'm Laraine. How sad. A couple of weeks ago, I wrote that my name was Laraine. She lit all up, smiled and said, "Two Laraines; That's my daughter's name too." I just smiled...and cried inside. When I write on the board, "What is my name?"...she'll make up a name. Most days, she refuses to look at me. Maybe if she could hear, I could talk to her....and explain who I am. Maybe then she'd know me. I wrote on the board today...You are my mother. She didn't understand...she said something that she didn't have two mothers. Well, I'm going to keep telling her who I am. This really stinks. I know that she's in God's hands..in God's plan....I rest in that. I just didn't want it to be like this!