A Day.....

It was actually a little sad today when my grandkids didn't come to my office trick or treating. I suggested that they just go to the other office since that's where their dad works. It's too hard to go to both places. Besides.....a dad trumps a grandma for that. Went to chiro for what is acting like siatic nerve pain....was hoping it would get better on its own. Now that's an every other day thing for a couple of weeks. Went to Mom's. She was in bed. She spoke to me from bed...words that I didn't understand. Atsu followed me in the room and proceeded to get her out of bed. First he had to put pants on her.....she had none on. Hard/hard/hard to see her body so very very thin. I will never forget her like this....that's all I can see. I put her slippers on her thin/thin feet. I gave her a comb & she combed her hair...a little. At first she wasn't interested in eating. I was about to leave but then she took a sandwich from me and ate the whole thing(half a sandwich) and ate half of the other half. But...she yelled at me a couple of times. I sat there and looked around at the various people. and listened to them. It's the saddest thing. My prayer for Mom now is...please keep her pain-free. It seems her body would hurt when she's handled...being that thin. maybe please keep her bed sore free. watch over her care. I can touch her...she can yell at me. She's tired....so very tired....

Day By Day

Lyle was diagnosed with Corticobasal Degeneration on Monday,October 24. First symptoms appeared Summer 2006. This is one of those diseases that there isn't a 100% "for sure" diagnosis....It's a diagnosis by elimination. An autopsy is the only way they know "for sure." He may be on the "slow train." He may not be. That's me talking. Outcome....living between 5 yrs and 13 years....average is 8 years. I am going between....nah - he doesn't have that... to...well, maybe he does. Only God knows and that's "for sure!"
"casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you." 1 Peter 5:7
"For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light." Matthew 11:30

Day by Day

Day by day, and with each passing moment,
Strength I find, to meet my trials here;
Trusting in my Father’s wise bestowment,
I’ve no cause for worry or for fear.
He Whose heart is kind beyond all measure
Gives unto each day what He deems best—
Lovingly, its part of pain and pleasure,
Mingling toil with peace and rest.

Every day, the Lord Himself is near me
With a special mercy for each hour;
All my cares He fain would bear, and cheer me,
He Whose Name is Counselor and Power;
The protection of His child and treasure
Is a charge that on Himself He laid;
“As thy days, thy strength shall be in measure,”
This the pledge to me He made.

Help me then in every tribulation
So to trust Thy promises, O Lord,
That I lose not faith’s sweet consolation
Offered me within Thy holy Word.
Help me, Lord, when toil and trouble meeting,
Ever to take, as from a father’s hand,
One by one, the days, the moments fleeting,
Till I reach the promised land.

In Texas

I'm in Irving, Texas.......right in the middle of Dallas & Fort Worth. I've been here since Sunday and leaving tomorrow (Friday). My man is going to school at DFW Flight Safety...6 minutes down the road...north of here. I'm driving a loaded Buick Enclave...with two sunroofs (one that opens). I take my man to school every morn about 7:30 (after we have a "free" to order breakfast here at the hotel). I know I'm getting older cause I get out of bed, throw on my exercise clothes (with a hoodie)...not caring that I don't have make-up on and that my hair is disheveled (although I do brush it). I take my man to school, pull out of the school's driveway, open the sunroof and turn up the radio.......and "drive" back to the hotel to exercise for 45 minutes. I then get a yogurt, maybe a banana & COFFEE! I take it back to my room, spend some time on the computer......THEN I take my shower & get ready for the day. That has been my week. One evening on our way to dinner, my phone rang. It was an "unidentifiable" number....but a message was left. It was Wendy from Comforcare, asking me to call her, but it was not an emergency. About 4:30, Mom's alarm went off. They went in her room to find her on the floor......BUT she didn't get hurt and was just fine, eating supper. I will go see her on Saturday. Today....I went shopping. I guess that I used my credit card a little too much........cause the company "froze" it! My last purchase tonight at Target.....my card wouldn't work. When we got back to the room, I called the credit card company. After all, our room, meals and gas need to go on the card tomorrow. They saw that the card was being used in Texas and thought the card had been stolen. They called our home phone and left a message.......BUT of course, we're traveling and I don't check my home phone messages. I had to give A LOT of information to get them to "unfreeze" the card. Guess that's what happens when a person doesn't travel much AND uses their credit card a lot instead of cash. I'm sure glad that my credit card wasn't stolen! Ahhhh Texas........so many people...and that's just in Irving!

The Visitors

My brother, Marvin, lives in Florida. The last time I saw him and talked to him was at my nephew's funeral in June 2010....and that June was the last time he saw Mom. He left me a message on my cell phone on September 9, 2011, that he was coming to Austin the next day for his 50th class reunion and wanted to see Mom but forgot what exit to take. I met him at the nursing home the next day. Mom was really good that late afternoon. She was real quiet at first. I wrote that it was Marvin. She looked & looked at him. "Marvin?" "You've gotten big." "You have the same smile." Then just 3 weeks later on September 29, my sister, Delores, came down to see my brother, Roger, and she agreed to go see Mom...she hasn't seen her in over 3 years. She is not doing well herself. Mom was real good once again that late afternoon. Delores said to me, "I don't know who that is." "This makes me nervous." Mom asked who Delores was...I wrote that it was Delores and she said, "I have a Delores." She didn't know any of us...but she had smiles for us. What a lady! I love that lady!

I didn't think to take a picture when Marvin visited, but here is the picture when Delores visited.