I think....

....that I cannot take it anymore. I have no other choice....I must. No one knows the pain....the hurt. God knows & He will give me strength to endure to the end. She took my hand today and held it. (Yesterday, she slapped me....not hard..just a get away from me) Today, she looked into my eyes. It was a pleading look. Her back hurt (tonight they change her pain patch)...the nurse looked to see if she could have Tylenol....no, the dr. discontinued it. I now have to request it be reinstated. She ate...a few bites. A little distraction from wanting to lie down. They took her to lie down and change her patch. Tonight is bath night...not a good thing. I think I cannot take it anymore....I must.