18 days....

It's been 18 days....  My mom has been gone 18 days.  I miss her so much.  My life has been busy.  Busy going to funeral visitations!  I know 6 people who have died in these past 2.5 weeks...and know of 2 more.  What is going on?
Oh other things are thrown in....a bridal shower, celebrating 39 years of marriage, going to the nurse practitioner to be evaluated (blood tests normal...got her to decrease thyroid meds...still getting hives), making Christmas treats to take to work, decorating the Christmas tree, taking the grandkids to Neveln fun night and then to McDonald's, a 5 yr old bday tea party, lotza hugs from a 10 month old and happiness from 5 & 2 yr old girls, pizza party with family, decorating for a 60th bday, making bday treats for work, a 5 yr old bday supper and cake eating, and daughter's bday today 12/12/12.  throw in there a few times of writing thank yous.  Busy days.....grieving days.
I miss my mom's smile, I miss her telling me to sit down when I went to visit her, I miss making her coffee (with 2 packets of sugar), I miss telling them what to give her to eat, I miss feeding her, I miss washing her glasses, I miss her looking in my eyes when I wrote that I'm Laraine, her daughter...I miss how excited she got when I wrote "Laraine" and she smiled real big and said that was her daughter's name too.  She was a HUGE part of my life these past 12 years.  But my God knows the pain and He comforts me.  It is so, so hard.  The pain is real....the pain is deep.  I miss my mom!